Last Words

This was me few years back, yes, the pain that I’m avoiding of is here again. How can I escape from this feeling, if every time I close my eyes, what I can only see is your face? Ignoring you is painful, but I guess that’s the only thing I can do for now, until I am sure that I can trust myself again.

I’m sorry if I can’t stay to be by your side anymore, I’m sorry for my selfishness. I just can’t bear with this trouble that I entered on. It's not your fault, it’s nobody's fault. . .but me. . . And I’d rather hate myself than to hate you my dear.

It’s always me whose been trusting someone so easily

It’s always me whose been so careless

It’s always me whose heart was not guarded so perfectly

It’s always me.

I’m sorry for leaving you without giving you a word, but I just want to thank you for letting me feel how to love again. How my numb heart learned how to beat again. This pain, I know it’s just temporary, but the memories we've shared will be forever cherished.

I don’t want to forget you, what I want is to forget what I am feeling right now. And before that day happen, for the last time

I wanted to say

I love you and I really do.